Friday, September 22, 2006!
strawberry milkshake vs promos, ♥
Strawberry milkshake vs PROMOS
Just as strawberry milkshake which is sweet, delicious BUT unhealthy, promos is beneficial BUT sickening, mortifying, stressing, depressing and UNDESIRABLE. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Im NOT in an enough is not enough mood here. Frankly speaking, i've got no confidence in my ability or my brain cells. During chemistry yesterday, i've got a STRONG urge to call him and cry. For no reason. Just stress. Somehow, I knew he'd understand and not judge me by my actions. But all was well when I let everything out during the walk home. Minus the tears. Maybe its just the way I present myself to everyone. That I've got everything under control. But inside, its a mess. There's no telling the degree of the mess. Take confidence. NONE. ZERO. ZIP. ZILCH. And confidence is all what I need to push me further. I've got a feeling that Im not prepared and will NEVER be ready. That I've not studied enough. Which is true. I think. URGH. The most pressing matter, I need to get an A for chem. That's it. No questions asked. Without it, I won't be able to regain my confidence. Im not boasting or anything but I really need the A. Bloody hell. Fockernology. I suck.
11:51 AM,♥
now, smile(:
