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I hate the shit im in now. I hate this feeling. I hate this situation. I hate him. I hate her. I hate everyone who tries to control the situation by influencing my mind. Freaks. Im not easily influenced. Im 17, and Im a big girl. I know what is wrong and what is right. The things I do, the actions I take has a reason behind. Fine, at times, I react with my heart leading. But I do it instinctively, to protect myself. My feelings, my heart.

Have you ever felt what I feel? Have you ever gone through what Im going through, and what I've been through? Have you ever been in my shoes? Try it, and if it fits your size, you'll know the pain, hatred, anguish, hurt, devastation that I've kept bottled up. This shit is taking a toll on myself. Its tearing me apart, slowly but steadily.

These tears won't stop flowing. Crying in the middle of the night, alone is the only solace I find in this stage full of lies and deception. Its an act, so you can jolly well fuck off!!

Hear my incessant cries of anguish,
Leave me alone!