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okayy. where do i start? today has been disgustingly disgusting. its one of those days when i start to live in reality. no more neverland. and i realise tt he has returned the key to my heart. indeed, i broke free from his clutches. yes, i am. because i believe in the power of words, saying it out, makes it truer( is dere such word?). no buts this time, nana.

do i feel better denn? to some extent, yea. there's stiil a nagging thot at the back of my head though. tt if he comes back one day, when i've truly moved on, what am i suppose to do? DENN HOW? denn, i shall continue lookin forward. no backward glance. it'll discredit my efforts. yea, im moving on.

knowing why i fell out of love with him, is... no adequate words to express the feeling. mar told me, the feelin has been dere all along. i just have to be convinced. izzit true? but im not ready to say it out loud. i'll see how luhh. no, now, im not ready. but.. nvm.