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im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
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| As always, I was spending my time doing my favourite pastime-daydreaming, when my eye caught something that made me think. Or rather reflect. It was a photo of my family at Desaru, which was taken like 8 years ago. And the effect it had in me wasn't all good. In fact, I would say, I wished I hadn't look at the photo. Looking at photo, it reminded me of the good old days. Where nothing in the world could jeopardize my happiness. Because in my head, I had the perfect family. Perfect mum. Perfect dad. Perfect siblings. I was doiing good in school. In fact, I was top in class. It was bliss. My family and I would go on holidays, usually Desaru. It was a retreat. From the busy and hectic city life. No words were adequate enough to express my feelings of happiness at that point of time. I had the impression that this thing would go on forever. Boy. was I wrong. What hurt me more was not what he had done to the family. It was knowing that all this while, all the happy face and holidays and midnight trips to Johor were FAKE. It was to cover up his mistakes. It was to soothe himself of the guilt he was feeling. It was all just a charade. All this while, he was thinking about himself, never about the family. I couldn't even take comfort in the past. Even the past is hurting me. I just wish that all this had never happen. I wish that the bitch had never existed or that at this very moment, she's being eaten by GIANT MONSTER. I'd hand the monster a napkin. Oh well. There's always hell. I hope you rot in there. I don't know if I'd forgiven him yet. Even if I had, I have not forget. |