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im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
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| At times like this, all I wish for is for my memories to disappear. For it to fly elsewhere, and only return when I permit. Better still, gone for eternity. It has been a helluva roller-coaster ride for me this few days. My tears won't stop flowing, my throat won't stop constricting, my emotions getting out of control. Sometimes I wonder, why must I cry when what's past is past. Why must I hold on to the past when I have the future to think about. Why can't I break free from those chain of events that is now haunting me. "Nana, you're strong." That's what people always tell me. On the surface, yes Im strong. Its only because Im putting up a strong 'mask'. Im not one who wears my emotions on my sleeve. I laugh, I joke, I appear as though I have the whole world wrap around my fingertips. But inside, Im breaking apart. I've been holding back these emotions for too long now. I've never wanted all this to happen. I've never ask for this. Yet, wherever I look, something always reminds me of what use to be mine thus these tears flow, as if having a life of their own. There's no telling when it'll stop. I want to scream, I want to shout, I want to let it all out. I want to let the whole world know that Im not okay. That I need a shoulder to cry on. That I want for the memories to be erased. That Im not strong... Stop the song. Its too painful. Don't tell Im strong. Cause Im not. Im broken. |