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im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
im O N E of a K I N D, be careful not to fall in L O V E
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| If I've learnt anything during the course of the past few years, its 'happiness never last.' And its not based on an experience, its through numerous life-changing experience, that more than often, leaves me standing in the pouring rain. laughter does not necessarily mean happiness. Tears does not mean sadnes. At times, its the silent laughter, or the tiniest smile, is happiness. Think Im being pessimistic? Why don't you ask me, what I've been through, and then tell me, am I suppose to hang my optimism high up in the air, dangle it in front of evil eyes? Only to realise, being optimistic does not compel myself to being happy. Its not you being concern, or saying ok. Opening up, is never a crime. Its the consequencesthat is the price I have to pay. Maybe for once, we should exchange places, and you'll see things my way. My perception. Then maybe, you'll stop. Both of you should do that. Then you'll realise why Im bein apathetic. Ignorance is a blessing. Tell me I've harden. Tell me im stubborn. But its my stubborness that have been shielding me all this while. Im not one who wears my emotions on my sleeve. Because its not sympathy that I want. Empathy, is more like it. Enough damage is done. See things through my eyes. Im tired of fighting back tears, yet Im tired of crying. Ya allah... |